Reading over some of the posts I’ve written, it stood out to me that something that features in a lot of them is guilt. Guilt about work mostly, and missing a lot of time with them, guilt about how I deal with meltdowns, guilt about doing it all wrong. When those waves of guilt appear…
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20 things that women should stop wearing after the age of 30: 1-20: The weight of other people’s expectations and judgements. Maura Quint ‘Oh Mama, you’re just so squishy!’ Rian first said this to me months ago, he spontaneously ran over to me, flung his arms around my legs, squeezed me as hard as his…
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This isn’t really a story about a seagull and a fish. More, it’s a story of how a seagull and a fish made me cry a little bit this evening. Out of nowhere, while reading one of our absolute favourite books, probably my favourite one actually – The Snail and The Whale. The story (by…
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{Originally published January 2016} When Rian was born, we got loads of practical and thoughtful gifts for him. One of the gifts we got was a memory box – well actually we got two beautiful ones – and I love them. However, there are some things you can’t put into the memory boxes or the…
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“What would you do if you weren’t afraid?” -Sheryl Sandberg Maybe it’s just me, or maybe it’s not me but just a phase I’m going through right now. Whatever ‘it’ is, it has me feeling very uncertain about things in my life at the moment. Maybe it’s because 40 is hurtling down the road at…
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There’s an app called Timehop that I love. It takes you on a daily trip down memory lane, showing you photos and videos ‘on this day’ style. With the sheer amount of photos and videos on our phones it’s easy for things to get lost in a sea of forgotten moments, so I love this…
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As an eldest child myself with three younger sisters, I often noticed the frustrating unfairness that sometimes came with being the eldest. Often getting blamed for stuff just because I was older ‘and should know better’, and often finding that rules that had once applied to me, suddenly no longer applied to the youngest child.…
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If you lived with a four year old obsessed with George Ezra’s Shotgun song, who pestered you non stop all day asking “Mam can we listen to ‘underneath the hocksun‘ now?”, what would you do? Well, if you were me you’d start off by saying every time, “it’s not ‘hocksun’ Rian it’s HOT SUN, and…
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I could easily understand that if anyone happens to read some of my blog posts and doesn’t have children, that they’d read along and wonder why on earth anyone would want to have them. We complain constantly about the hard parts; the sleepless nights, the exhaustion, the seemingly illogical meltdowns leaving us in constant states…
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“The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched they must be felt with the heart” Helen Keller ~A letter to my sons~ Sometimes I wonder about what you’ll be like as grown men. Will you get married, will you have kids? Will you achieve all you want, will…
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The Scenic Route 