Kids, eh? Teaching us things about ourselves every day. My latest lesson? Well, turns out I’m as thick as two short planks. At four and a half Rian has moved firmly past the general, easy questions that young kids ask centering around ‘Why?’ and we have upgraded a level to the never ending loop of…
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I cautiously open one eye and wait for my brain to kick in and determine what day of the week it is and what is on today’s agenda of Things To Do. Saturday. Good – no trains to work, I don’t have to get up yet. Next, I assess by the level of light streaming…
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I don’t know if it’s a full moon, or if it’s just that I feel particularly tired lately from the never ending early mornings (thank you 5am sunrises that make young children think it’s the middle of the day), or if it’s just that I’m 38 and noticing changes in myself that are probably just…
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‘Hey Mam? Remember when yesterday – yesterday – yesterday and yesterday we had no crèche?’ That’s how Rian counts days in the past and days in the future. Yesterday-yesterday-yesterday is his way of referring to last Sunday for example, if today is Thursday. And if today is Thursday, tomorrow-tomorrow-tomorrow is how he refers to next…
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Those of you who read my ramblings on a regular basis might have noticed one or two posts where I’ve spoken about how tricky I’ve been finding balancing everything – work, kids, creche viruses and just generally trying to keep all the plates spinning more, and my head spinning less. Spoiler, the plates weren’t spinning…
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Welcome. And also, congratulations. You’ve reached a point in your life where you’ve felt compelled to click on something with Toilet in the title. What brings you here? Not here specifically, although I’m glad to have you and all, but I mean, what state of affairs is your life in that you want to read…
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Reading over some of the posts I’ve written, it stood out to me that something that features in a lot of them is guilt. Guilt about work mostly, and missing a lot of time with them, guilt about how I deal with meltdowns, guilt about doing it all wrong. When those waves of guilt appear…
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20 things that women should stop wearing after the age of 30: 1-20: The weight of other people’s expectations and judgements. Maura Quint ‘Oh Mama, you’re just so squishy!’ Rian first said this to me months ago, he spontaneously ran over to me, flung his arms around my legs, squeezed me as hard as his…
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{Originally published January 2016} When Rian was born, we got loads of practical and thoughtful gifts for him. One of the gifts we got was a memory box – well actually we got two beautiful ones – and I love them. However, there are some things you can’t put into the memory boxes or the…
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“What would you do if you weren’t afraid?” -Sheryl Sandberg Maybe it’s just me, or maybe it’s not me but just a phase I’m going through right now. Whatever ‘it’ is, it has me feeling very uncertain about things in my life at the moment. Maybe it’s because 40 is hurtling down the road at…
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The Scenic Route 