I remember when I started this blog, and why. Seven years ago, we had been trying to have a baby for years, then found out we’d need to do IVF, and I realised I needed somewhere to pour out my thoughts and feelings, somewhere to empty my brain without needing to explain or apologise, no…
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{To Rian, starting ‘big’ school!} You love going to the park. Running around the playground, I watch as you look across every so often to make sure that I can see the amazing jump you’re about to make, or watch as you push yourself to new heights on the swing. I watch as you climb…
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I cautiously open one eye and wait for my brain to kick in and determine what day of the week it is and what is on today’s agenda of Things To Do. Saturday. Good – no trains to work, I don’t have to get up yet. Next, I assess by the level of light streaming…
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I don’t know if it’s a full moon, or if it’s just that I feel particularly tired lately from the never ending early mornings (thank you 5am sunrises that make young children think it’s the middle of the day), or if it’s just that I’m 38 and noticing changes in myself that are probably just…
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Welcome. And also, congratulations. You’ve reached a point in your life where you’ve felt compelled to click on something with Toilet in the title. What brings you here? Not here specifically, although I’m glad to have you and all, but I mean, what state of affairs is your life in that you want to read…
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{Originally published January 2016} When Rian was born, we got loads of practical and thoughtful gifts for him. One of the gifts we got was a memory box – well actually we got two beautiful ones – and I love them. However, there are some things you can’t put into the memory boxes or the…
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“What would you do if you weren’t afraid?” -Sheryl Sandberg Maybe it’s just me, or maybe it’s not me but just a phase I’m going through right now. Whatever ‘it’ is, it has me feeling very uncertain about things in my life at the moment. Maybe it’s because 40 is hurtling down the road at…
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There’s an app called Timehop that I love. It takes you on a daily trip down memory lane, showing you photos and videos ‘on this day’ style. With the sheer amount of photos and videos on our phones it’s easy for things to get lost in a sea of forgotten moments, so I love this…
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“Fuck off with your ‘Relaxed’!” {Also features on The M Word } Recently I wrote a post about Living With Infertility, and I focused on what the direct impact of it was like at the time. But although it discusses infertility itself, what isn’t often discussed is the effect of that, and how it affects…
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“The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched they must be felt with the heart” Helen Keller ~A letter to my sons~ Sometimes I wonder about what you’ll be like as grown men. Will you get married, will you have kids? Will you achieve all you want, will…
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The Scenic Route 