I remember when I started this blog, and why. Seven years ago, we had been trying to have a baby for years, then found out we’d need to do IVF, and I realised I needed somewhere to pour out my thoughts and feelings, somewhere to empty my brain without needing to explain or apologise, no…
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When I think of Alex, what are the first words that come to mind? Smile, Dimple, Hair, Buzz, Bright, Chaotic, Determined, Stubborn, Bright..! When Alex was born, he was so tiny, sometimes I’d look at him and almost worry about picking him up, he just looked so delicate. For the first six months, all he…
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{To Rian, starting ‘big’ school!} You love going to the park. Running around the playground, I watch as you look across every so often to make sure that I can see the amazing jump you’re about to make, or watch as you push yourself to new heights on the swing. I watch as you climb…
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Kids, eh? Teaching us things about ourselves every day. My latest lesson? Well, turns out I’m as thick as two short planks. At four and a half Rian has moved firmly past the general, easy questions that young kids ask centering around ‘Why?’ and we have upgraded a level to the never ending loop of…
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I cautiously open one eye and wait for my brain to kick in and determine what day of the week it is and what is on today’s agenda of Things To Do. Saturday. Good – no trains to work, I don’t have to get up yet. Next, I assess by the level of light streaming…
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Well, technically it’s two mics but that wouldn’t make as nice a title for a blog post if you ask me! Either way, I’m now offically a Podcaster! In case you hadn’t heard, (or you’ve managed to avoid me more or less spamming my Instagram account with it!) the new podcast is called Under The…
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‘Hey Mam? Remember when yesterday – yesterday – yesterday and yesterday we had no crèche?’ That’s how Rian counts days in the past and days in the future. Yesterday-yesterday-yesterday is his way of referring to last Sunday for example, if today is Thursday. And if today is Thursday, tomorrow-tomorrow-tomorrow is how he refers to next…
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Those of you who read my ramblings on a regular basis might have noticed one or two posts where I’ve spoken about how tricky I’ve been finding balancing everything – work, kids, creche viruses and just generally trying to keep all the plates spinning more, and my head spinning less. Spoiler, the plates weren’t spinning…
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Welcome. And also, congratulations. You’ve reached a point in your life where you’ve felt compelled to click on something with Toilet in the title. What brings you here? Not here specifically, although I’m glad to have you and all, but I mean, what state of affairs is your life in that you want to read…
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Reading over some of the posts I’ve written, it stood out to me that something that features in a lot of them is guilt. Guilt about work mostly, and missing a lot of time with them, guilt about how I deal with meltdowns, guilt about doing it all wrong. When those waves of guilt appear…
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The Scenic Route 